Good morning, saints. I want to share a story with you this morning that changed me. I thought my resumé was my answer. So I brought forth. It was always proceeding me, my resumé. I would hand that down, I would be quiet. But when I went into the ministry to work, I thought my worldly resumé would be my entrance. I was applying for a job with Benny Hinn Ministries, really, and his security team. I was a police officer in Hampton, Virginia. I told the HR that I was a course 28 year military man, I was a police officer, with a metal of valor, I was in Vietnam. And so I go back to tell pastor Benny Hinn why I should be on his security. I had the best resumé. I was looking good in my resumé, and I thought that’s what it takes to work for God.
And so I go back after service and Benny Hinn had had a healing service. I went back to see pastor Benny with my pride and resumé, where he was under the anointing of God. And so I go back and my pride met the anointing. I fell, not the anointing. I went back and he had his already incumbent team of security and they were standing around watching me. I had my police uniform on. I was working out, I was a little bit swole then. Externally, I thought I was qualified. Internally, I was lacking. I was lacking, had no discernment of what ground I was standing on. And so I go in and pride could not stand. When I got there, I was accosted by the Holy Spirit, because I dropped down to my knees. The Bible said, “Every knee will bow, every tongue will confess” whether you want to or not, that day is coming for each and every one of us.
Well that day happened to me. I fell down on my knees and tears start to flow. I was humbled. I had on my uniform, I had my resumé, I had my background, but I didn’t have my heart right. I kind of felt like when Cain brought forth a sacrifice offering to God, but his heart wasn’t right. And what happened, I was watching this incumbent team, the security guys watching me cry. I was so embarrassed. I was hurt, because I thought I was qualified. Saints, we have to realize we’re not qualified. I don’t care what kind of degree you have. That’s good for the world, but not for the Kingdom.
So God takes you as you are, right where you’re at and He qualifies you. But I had to learn that through humility. He had to let me see that it was too much pride in me, but He could fix it. I don’t care what you have done, where you have been, what you have; God qualifies you for the position that He has, with the purpose that He has you in. I was on my knees, I was crying, I couldn’t talk. I was crying, and I told pastor Benny Hinn, I said, “Sir, I don’t want the job, ’cause I can’t, I don’t know what this is. I don’t know what’s happening.” And I was always in charge, always made my decisions and something has now taken that away. God was saying,”Now you have to rely on Me. You have to trust Me. You have to let go and let God.” But what was happening in the physical was also happening in the spiritual. God was doing a heart operation on me. And so I said, “Pastor, I want to leave. I don’t want the job.” I barely got it out because of the tears. I had my head down, because I thought everybody was watching me and laughing at me, but wasn’t nobody watching. There were “Amens” going on, but I wasn’t aware of that. Pastor Benny stopped me as I was going away. He said, “You have a kind and gentle heart, and I would love for you to be on my staff.” The new man came out, because I know it was not me. I really got a position that I wasn’t qualified for. Because it wasn’t about my gun, it wasn’t about my uniform. It was about the Spirit of God. It was about learning to discern through the Spirit of God. It was the new me that God wanted, me, the conduit, working through me, but He couldn’t with that old man, that old heart, that pride, that old resumé. God had a new one for me. And saints, what am I saying? I’m saying sometimes we have to just surrender all. I know we sing the song I Surrender All, but we really have to do it. It cannot be a cliché. It has to be a way of life.
Trust God. Ever since that day I’ve been serving God and I prayed, “God, the rest of my days I’ll serve you,” and my resume is His resumé. What He’d done on the cross is what I bring forth. And I thank you Lord for that training. I thank you for that bootcamp that prepared me for a position, in Jesus’ Name. Amen.
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