Christian artist Hope Darst talks about how anger and fear became so crippling that these emotions almost landed her in the hospital.
Hope Darst
Hope Darst, a worship leader, desires to see people encounter the love of Jesus, restored and set free in His presence. Additionally, Hope has written and recorded many songs. Including Peace Be Still, Promise Keeper, Come Alive, and the Top Charting Radio single and title track of her latest project, “If the Lord Builds the House”.
Her latest single “Never Walk Alone” reminds us all of the faithfulness of God throughout our lives and that we are never alone. This is from her official website: https://www.hopedarst.com/
In her interview with 99.1 JOY FM, Hope revealed that she had an emotional struggle for 30 years that kept her bound.
Saved But Not Free
“I just remember feeling like the Lord just whispered into my heart, ‘Hope you’re saved. You love me. You are completely committed to me, but you are not free. And I didn’t come just to save you. I came to set you free,’” she recalled.
She remained faithful despite her parents’ brutally painful divorce. She had just had her second baby at that time too, but she was still serving in the ministry.
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Hope was faithful in the ministry. She followed all the rules.
“And yet, internally, I was just riddled with so much anger. Insecurity, and fear, and hopelessness, and feeling unworthy, and feeling like I was never going to actually be better. I just so desperately wanted to be better at anything and everything. And it’s funny, you don’t plan your breakdown. You don’t prepare for it. You don’t mark it on the calendar,” she recalled.
Hope Darst: “Being on the floor at Jesus’ feet was the hardest and the scariest place to be”
One disappointment triggered Hope to break down, and she was on her bed for three days straight. Her husband, worried about her, told her that she might need to go to the hospital.
“Wanting to just rewind, just go to three days before and start over. And figure out how to not get to that place. But the thing is I didn’t get there in three days. I had gotten there over 30 plus years of just stuffing and ignoring. Not believing that God actually could be my healer and bring freedom,” she recalled.
Desperate for change, Hope prayed and lay down on the carpet, waiting for God.
“And I found that being on the floor at Jesus’ feet was the hardest and the scariest place to be. But it’s the only place I found freedom. It’s the only place I found healing. It’s the only place that I found redemption,” she said.
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Reference: 99.1 JOY FM
Header image: Hope Darst [99.1 JOY FM]. YouTube, 10 January 2022, https://youtu.be/-udb92MFfNM
